The Journey Begins

Ok. Enough for these trying-hard-to-impress blogs of mine. I am not happy with them anymore. It’s too far from what i wanted them to be. What i really wanted is simply to tell my life with all honesty without any inhibitions and make believes. I want to tell you what i feel and what i think. This would be very difficult for me. I have a lot of things that i hide just all by myself without other people knowing it because i am afraid to be rejected, i am afraid to be mocked, i am afraid for its consequences. But all this keeping and secrecy has a toil to pay – my identity. Yes, i traded off my identity to hide these secrets and now i can’t find it anymore. Without it, i am like a blind man without any direction. So i want to begin a personal journey of finding my identity – my true and real self. This sounds silly but i don’t care. I am not asking you to pity on me, I am not asking you to like me, I am not asking you to love me because I’m also tired of asking these things. So this is it.  I’m about to begin. Will you journey with me?

~ by nelmski on February 1, 2008.